God is good!

Okay, here are 2 things I am learning while I process things with God…

1. God is good and His mercies endure forever – It is oh so easy to blame Him when something bad happens in our lives, isn’t it? It’s easy to see God as the bad
guy when we are filled with pain. But all I can say to you is this: I would not last one day in this desert if not for His love. He has been pulling me through this and has opened my eyes enough to see Him do it!

2. All things happen for the good of those who love God –  I know there is a reason for my father’s death.. And while I adjust and cope I will rest in the knowledge that all of this is happening for my good. Do I believe this everyday? No! There are days when I just want my Dad back… These are the days I need to press on and just trust the Lord to save me from myself.

To quote my favorite blogger ever,

He took my Dad. And He gave me Himself.

Fabs

I can see Him doing this… Drawing me near to Him. And that is all I need.

Confessions of a daughter

For those of you who don’t know me, my family and I are going through a rough time. We lost a a very important person to all of us 5 weeks ago today. My father died of a heart attack and there wasn’t anything anybody could have done — as it usually happens with heart attacks. The funny thing with that is that they leave no time to say goodbye to the one you love. They are just gone and there is nothing you can do about it. This has been devastating for me. My parents divorced when I was 10, so I am used to living without having him around all the time, but there are days when all I want to do is to turn back time and give him a big hug, hear his jokes, listen to him laugh, and sing.. Those days are endless.. It still doesn’t feel real to me that he is gone. I keep wanting more time with him; time to say goodbye because there is so much left unsaid. I feel so lost sometimes.. like a little girl whodoesn’t know which way to go. The one true thing in my life right now is that the Lord is an ever present help in times of need. He has proven Himself faithful yet again. He hasbeen my rock and my comforter and the One that is keeping me sane when sadness and anxiety beyond measure strike. I still don’t know how to deal with all of this, but I know that the Lord will see me through. I will let you know how it all turns out — if you’re interested!

“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” Psalm 46:1

As bênçãos de ser solteiro

Olá! Não tenho postado nada em um tempão!! E …. esse é meu primeiro post em português.. woooohooo…

Então.. ano passado, uma amiga me mandou um email. Esse email me abençoou de uma forma tremenda! Era um blog. Um blog que falava a respeito das bênçãos de ser solteiro. Eu pensei, como pode ser isso??? Como pode ser solteiro e ser abençoado por isso?? Pra mim, essas duas coisas não combinavam de jeito nenhum!! Quando li o blog estava estupefata. Como não vi isso antes?? Deus sabe das minhas necessidades, e escolheu me deixar solteira. Não me entenda mal, ainda estou me adaptando à essa situação. Sei que Deus é soberano.. Tendo dito tudo isso, resolvi, com a permissão da escritora do blog, é claro, traduzir a série Bênção de Ser Solteiro pra vocês. Minha oração é que vocês sejam abençoadas e crescam no Senhor!

Aí está!

Solidão não é um sentimento exclusivo aos solteiros. Não posso imaginar a dor de viver com um marido emocionalmente ausente ou ir dormir sozinha após perder um cônjuge.

A solidão é uma sensação muito estranha. É, ao mesmo tempo, algo físico e emocional, e, na maioria das vezes, não sei o que fazer com ela. Sei que a solidão não vai me levar à morte, mas quando ela aparece, é insuportável. Tenho a impressão de que se não conseguir fazer algo a respeito, vou realmente morrer.

A meu ver, a solidão tem raiz na dor de nunca me sentir completamente conhecida; de não ter alguém com quem compartilhar meus mais profundos medos, sonhos e anseios. E a realidade fraudulenta na qual os solteiros às vezes acreditam é a de que ninguém nunca tentou realmente nos conhecer. Sentimo-nos sozinhos quando temos que tomar alguma decisão. Sentimo-nos sozinhos em nossos sonhos. Sentimo-nos sozinhos em nossos temores. A coisa mais estranha a respeito da “solteirice” é que ninguém nos conhece no mais íntimo dos modos. Estou em uma fase da minha vida na qual Deus declarou que nenhum mortal me conhecerá intimamente. E isso faz com que me sinta ainda mais sozinha.

A dor da solidão é uma dádiva. Como toda dor, ela indica que algo em algum lugar não está certo. Minha solidão me lembra de que esse mundo é insatisfatório e insuficiente. É um sinal que me leva a buscar ajuda fora de mim mesma.

Cada golpe de solidão é um teste para o meu coração: eu acredito no “basta” de Deus? Eu acredito no que Ele diz mesmo quando minha vida parece dizer o contrário? Ele diz que tenho tudo o que preciso. Ele diz que satisfará os anseios do meu coração.  E cada pontada me lembra de olhar para o alto e recusar qualquer conforto que não venha dele.

Sem a solidão, nunca perseveraria. Satisfaço-me com muita facilidade. Se pudesse escolher, me acomodaria com qualquer companhia que me oferecesse um sedativo momentâneo para a solidão. E em Sua bondade, o Senhor não me concedeu isso. Em uma sexta-feira, sozinha em meu apartamento, quando parece que ninguém sabe que estou viva, não há esperança de me livrar da solidão a não ser pela bondade de Deus e a verdade do Evangelho. Não tenho para onde ir. Sou forçada a lidar com o problema. Suas promessas são minha única esperança.

Existem maneiras de desperdiçar a solidão. Você desperdiçará sua solidão se deixar que ela se contente com a companhia de meros mortais ao invés do Todo-Poderoso. Nossa solidão não tem o propósito de nos ensinar a ansiar por um cônjuge. Um cônjuge ou a “solteirice”, uma companhia ou a solidão – essas coisas devem nos ensinar a ansiar por Deus.

Você desperdiçará sua solidão se permitir que ela o leve a duvidar das promessas e da bondade de Deus. A bênção mais importante que a solidão proporciona é que ela ensina a anelar por Deus de uma forma profunda e pode ser usada pelo Espírito para aumentar e estimular nossa fé para que possamos crer que Ele é nossa única alegria.

Você desperdiçará sua solidão se tentar preencher o vazio dentro de você e, no processo, se tornar uma pessoa amargurada por ter tentado saciar uma necessidade que só Deus pode suprir. Ou se ficar frustrado com Deus por Ele não ter fornecido ídolos para você adorar, ao invés dele. Existe Alguém que nos conhece íntimamente. Exite Alguém que nos deseja profundamente. A solidão não acontece porque Jesus não é o bastante. A solidão acontece porque não passamos mais tempo com Cristo. A dor nos força a distinguir em que realmente acreditamos. Confiaremos que Ele é nosso tesouro e imploraremos por mais de Sua presença? Ou trocaremos o Deus Todo-Poderoso por um tesouro tangível – um tesouro corruptível?

Continue caminhando apesar de sua solidão e permita que ela te lembre que você não está em casa. Ele promete satisfazer o desejo do coração com boas coisas. Não deixe que sua solidão seja suprida deste lado do Céu. Aprenda a viver com um descontentamento santo. Nosso Deus é o Deus do faminto e do sedento. Por Sua graça continuarei nessa categoria. Deus me livre me saciar dos dons e bênçãos que Ele dá.

Qualquer que seja seu estágio de vida – seja encorajado por sua solidão. Continue caminhando. Aprenda a não depender do seu cônjuge ou dos seus amigos pra que esse sentimento vá embora – ao invés disso, deixe que a dor o instrua a desejar pelo que ainda não pode ser visto

Anseie pelo Único que te conhece e te ama infalivel e fielmente. Só existe uma pessoa que o ama dessa maneira. Seu nome é Jesus. Somente Ele pode satisfazer os desejos do seu coração. Deixe que sua solidão o leve a ansiar por Ele.

Se quiser saber mais a respeito do blog, visite Thoughts from Fabs

Escrito por Fabienne H; tradução: Ana Carolina

Até a próxima

I’ve been thinking about something.

Have you ever thought you’ve become the worst version of yourself? That question reminds me of the movie You’ve Got Mail for some reason — one of my faves for sure! Okay.. rabbit trail.. what I mean is.. havent you ever thought to yourself “How did I get here?” — I know I have. I spent a great amount of time just wondering how my life could have been, and where did I go wrong, or what would have happened if i had just kept my mouth shut, or that I definitely should NOT have spent that much money.. Now, what good did that do me, I ask you? I could not add an hour to my life by worrying, and it certainly did not make my problems go away.

The Bible says that all things work for the good of those who love the Lord.. so should we take that to heart? Most definitely. Do we act upon it? NO, we don’t. It’s in our nature to worry and that is a good thing sometimes. What Jesus warned us against was anxiety, really. I am a VERY anxious person. I may seem calm on the outside, but on the inside…. sheesh.. there’s always a battle going on. And there are BAD side effects to that…. I’m a nervous eater..(just felt the need to be honest there) YEP… I’ve said it.. i wish i wasnt.. oh, how i wish i wasnt.. hehe. And for those of you who aren’t like me.. there’s always something..  It’s interesting how we function, isn’t it?

Anyways…

A few weeks ago I read a note on Facebook that stirred up something within me. It was such an honest note I still think about it from time to time. It was mostly about being honest with yourself and doing what you are called to do and not worry about what other people will think of you. That hit me like a rock — and a very heavy one for that matter. I realized that it is so important to just follow my dreams, and where the Lord is leading me. I know He has the best for me — for all of His children. I spend so much time wondering what would be accepted by the people around me I forget to focus on what God’s will for me really is. I really hope He changes me.

Much love,

Ana

Take me to the place

It’s been a while since I’ve blogged. I guess I wanted to write about something meaningful at least for me, that would help me make sense of what is going on around – and inside of – me. A lot of times in our lives we go through dry seasons. Times when it seems nobody else understands what you’re going through except.. well… you. I’m saying “we” because I know I’m not alone here — you have experienced this at some point in your life.. maybe you’re going thought this now.

Last night I was chatting with my good friend Sam and we were talking about drawing near to God. I must confess that a lot of what she said convicted me. We talked of the importance of His Word and how we can only know His character through it – boy, that hit me like rock for 2 reasons:

1st – i have been beyond negligent in reading the Bible.

2nd – i saw what i have been, well.. not wanting to see for a while now, and that is how much i need Him in my life. I’ve been trying to do things on my own, thinking that I would get far without Him, but the truth is that i can do nothing apart from Him. (John 15:5)

I’m thinking of the Israelites back when Moses was leading them towards the promised land. They saw miracle after miracle after miracle, yet when Moses went to Mount Sinai to pray, the people turned their backs on the Lord their God and asked Aaron to build other gods for them so they could worship. How quickly i forget the God of my salvation and turn to other gods to fulfill the void inside my heart. And my prayer today is that God will help me “remember the height from which I have fallen” (Rev. 2:5) and repent and turn to Him; that He will take me to the place where I recall everything that He has done for me, where I was and where I stand now with Him; that I have nothing if i don’t have His love and all that He is. It amazes me how many times I take Him for granted and yet He still calls me by name and invites me into His presence. How awesome is He?

On another note — I am so thankful for my friends. I love them ALL very dearly.  They surely make my life brighter. The Lord has blessed me tremendously.

God bless you all!

Much love,

Ana

More randomness…

Okay here a little not from Facebook i “wrote” a while ago. Hope you enjoy..

My life according to…

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions using only song titles. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can’t use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It’s a lot harder than you think! Repost as “my life according to (band name)”

Pick your Artist: Bethany Dillon

Are you a male or female: I Am Yours

Describe yourself: Dreamer

How do you feel: Beautiful

Describe where you currently live: The Kingdom

If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Top of The World

Your favorite form of transportation: Airplane

Your best friend is: Clinging to The Cross

You and your best friend are: Revolutionaries

What’s the weather like: Joy Has Dawned

Is it Raining At Your House? Let Your Light Shine

Favorite type of day: Vagabond

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Great Big Mystery

What is life to you: Imagination

Your relationship: You Could Be The One

Your fear: Aimless

What is the best advice you have to give: Get Up and Walk

Thought for the Day: Move Forward

How I would like to die: In Christ Alone

My soul’s present condition: Beggar’s Heart

My motto: We Can Work it Out

Na na na na Oooh, Yeah

Okay, I have to be honest. I am really enjoying this blog thing. But, I do think that I’m taking it WAAY too seriously. If you’ve talked to me for a while, you know that I am not this serious all the time. And of course the Bible says that “There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven.” (Ecclesiastes 3:1)

That being said, I’ve decided to lighten the mood for a bit and share some things I love with you, just for the sake of randomness. (insert wink here!)

Before I begin, I have to say that I love that verse. I love that there is a specific time for everything in our lives, just as thee is a perfect time for a tree to bear its fruit and for a flower to blossom, there is an appointed time for every event in our lives. Time to get a job, to get married, to have children, to go through trials and tribulations, time to perform in from of a large audience (hint hint), etc. More often than not I think that my time is running out. I’m 27, still living at home, unemployed, have never had a boyfriend, and so on and so forth. It certainly changes my perspective to know that my days have been ordained since the foundation on the earth. And that I can’t change anything just by wishing it. To trust Him is all that I can do. Period. Oh, how I wish I learned my lesson.

Okay, I did not intend to do that. LOL…

Anyways.. I was talking about being random, right.. Hmmm

Well, I don’t think I’ve told anyone this, but I absolutely love Bethany Dillon. There, I said it. Whew… i feel better now.. haha. You may not be pleased with me, but I also like HANSON. Did you know that? Hmmm I think Aaron is going to fire me if he sees this.. HAHA, just kiding, he won’t. I also love spending time with my friends. It is actually my favorite thing to do. Also love hanging out with my cousins, we have so much fun together. I wish I could meet my friends in the US. I love to laugh.. Criminal Minds is my favorite TV show. I find it absolutely fascinating..

I better stop myself before i bore you to death..

hahah

Much love.

Ana