For those of you who don’t know me, my family and I are going through a rough time. We lost a a very important person to all of us 5 weeks ago today. My father died of a heart attack and there wasn’t anything anybody could have done — as it usually happens with heart attacks. The funny thing with that is that they leave no time to say goodbye to the one you love. They are just gone and there is nothing you can do about it. This has been devastating for me. My parents divorced when I was 10, so I am used to living without having him around all the time, but there are days when all I want to do is to turn back time and give him a big hug, hear his jokes, listen to him laugh, and sing.. Those days are endless.. It still doesn’t feel real to me that he is gone. I keep wanting more time with him; time to say goodbye because there is so much left unsaid. I feel so lost sometimes.. like a little girl whodoesn’t know which way to go. The one true thing in my life right now is that the Lord is an ever present help in times of need. He has proven Himself faithful yet again. He hasbeen my rock and my comforter and the One that is keeping me sane when sadness and anxiety beyond measure strike. I still don’t know how to deal with all of this, but I know that the Lord will see me through. I will let you know how it all turns out — if you’re interested!
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” Psalm 46:1