Calma

Deitar na grama e olhar para o enorme céu azul é uma coisa mágica. Traz uma paz que aquieta todos os seus pensamento e sua ansiedade – mesmo que seja só por um momento. É como se o tempo parasse brevemente, como se o mundo consistisse somente de você e da vastidão do céu. E nesse momento, você finalmente se sente serena enquanto as nuvens se moverem, levadas pelo vento. Então sua cachorra deita do seu lado, e tudo se torna perfeito. Como se você pudesse, enfim, respirar.

Mesmo que seja só por um momento.

Antes que as ondas estourem em você novamente

Mesmo que seja só por um momento, você se sente livre.

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A few things I believe in

I’m a big processer and over-analyzer. I think through things so much sometimes I can’t sit still. Last night I was thinking about some things, and when I started journaling, this is what came out. I hope it encourages you. I am so needing my heart to act like it believes everything written below.

Jesus, I believe You are Who You say You are.I believe You are the Son of God, that You were in the beginning with God, and that You came to walk on this earth to, wholly God and wholly man, to restore mankind’s relationship with God the Father. I believe that You were obedient to the point of sacrificiing Your own life to fulfill God’s plan. I believe that You rose from the dead and reign victorious. I believe You’re coming back for Your bride. I believe You chose me. I also believe that You will finish the work you began in my life. Inspite of me. Because of Who You are.

The Deeps, A Puritan Prayer

Lord Jesus, give me a deeper repentance, a horror of sin, a dread of its approach. Help me chastely to flee it and jealously to resolve that my heart shall be Thine alone.

Give me a deeper trust, that I may lose myself to find myself in Thee, the ground of my rest, the spring of my being. Give me a deeper knowledge of Thyself as a saviour, master, lord, and king. Give me power in private prayer, more sweetness in Thy Word, more steadfast grip on its truth. Give me deeper holiness in speech, thought, action, and let me not seek moral virtue apart from Thee.

Plough deep in me, great Lord, heavenly husbandsman, that my being may be a tilled field, the roots of grace spreading far and wide, until Thou alone art seen in me, Thy beauty golden like summer harvest, Thy fruitfulness as autumn plenty.

I have no master but Thee, no law but Thy will, no delight but Thyself, no wealth but that Thou givest, no good but that Thou blessest, no peace but that Thou bestowest. I am nothing but that Thou makest me. I have nothing but that I receive from Thee. I can be nothing but that grace adorns me. Quarry me deep, dear Lord, and then fill me to overflowing with living water.

-Author Unknown

Goodbye 2012, Hello 2013!

The beginning of a new year has always been exciting for me. It even smells different — it smells like possibilities and second chances. It is a possibility to start anew, with a clean slate – to be bold and daring, and I love that!

Unfortunately, the new year also brings heartaches and hardships, which helps us remember how fickle and fragile we are. It also helps us know for sure what we truly believe in. I love what Jonathan Edwards says about trials in his book Religious Affections, “(…) another benefit that such trials are of to true religion, is, that they purify and increase it. They not only manifest it to be true, but also tend to refine it, and deliver it from those mixtures of that which is false, which encumber and impede it; that nothing may be left but that which is true.” Maybe what you faced this year has made you want to give up on life itself. I’ve certainly been there at one point. For those of you who don’t know this, I’ve lost my Father 10 months ago. It was the hardest thing I’ve had to endure by far. It is never easy going through trials, especially when you can’t see the silver lining, but, the way I see it, I have two choices: I can either choose to cling to the One who can mend my broken heart and give me peace, or I can go about it the way the world does. I choose to cling to my Jesus. As painful and hard as it may be, He promises to be with me all the days of my life. And that is all I need to know!

Right now I want to encourage you to go to the One who carried a bigger burden than the one you are carrying right now. I want to encourage you not to give up because life is getting tough. Cling to the Lord. He is the only One who can save you!

May 2013 be filled with blessings and may we trust in the Lord like never before!

Psalm 16

5 Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup;
you make my lot secure.
6 The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
surely I have a delightful inheritance.
7 I will praise the Lord, who counsels me;
even at night my heart instructs me.
8 I keep my eyes always on the Lord.
With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
9 Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body also will rest secure,
10 because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead,
nor will you let your faithful[b] one see decay.
11 You make known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

Forgiveness

For those of you who don’t know this, I have an aunt who suffers from high blood pressure and diabetes. She had a heart attack and was in the ICU for a few weeks. A week after she got out of the ICU and went home, she had to go to the ER again because of her blood pressure. I got angry. I got angry because she doesn’t take care of herself, she doesn’t diet, she doesn’t do a lot of things she is supposed to. And when she came home from the hospital, she said she was afraid. All hell broke loose. I started to confront her by telling her that she doesn’t take care of herself, and that escalated into screaming and all kinds of shenanigans. It was not pretty. By the time we were done, she brought my Father into the conversation by saying I didn’t care about him. That was very painful to hear. The week after, she told one of my aunts that I was dead to her. Since then we didn’t speak again. It was hard after that because she is very hard to deal with, so she kept saying things indirectly to me, to which I didn’t respond. I don’t speak to her. I don’t look at her. We have no relationship whatsoever. The reason I am telling you this is because I need forgiveness. I know I am disobeying God. It is very hard to forgive her, not just because of what she said about my Father, but because of everything else she did afterwards. I know I am wrong. I need you guys to pray for me. I have never been this honest about any other issue in my life ever. Maybe I don’t understand what God’s forgiveness is. I need God’s help. I need God’s help to forgive, so if you think about it, say a prayer for the both of us. We so desperately need God!

Help, Lord Jesus!

Contentment

I’ve been struggling for the past few days. My hearts wants something it knows it can’t have. Silly heart! It wants what it wants without ever considering the circumstances surrounding it. Selfish heart! It wants to fulfill its own desires, and when it doesn’t get its way, it pouts, it throws fits.you see, my heart doesn’t realize that it doesn’t even beat out of its own will; that it only beats because Someone wants it to. My heart also doesn’t realize that it has everything it needs in order to survive, so it still tries to fill that God-shaped void with materialistic things. My sinful heart tells me it is discontent all the time… It is always anxious. It is deceitful above all else and it can’t be trusted. My heart needs to understand that God works everything for its good, and that He will not leave nor forsake those who chose to follow Him; that even when God says no, He is not being mean, He is showing kindness and grace; it needs to learn that all will be well, and that even when it hurts, in the midst of every circumstance, God is building its trust and perfecting its faith.

I really hope my heart learns to find contentment in the Lord soon, regardless of the season it is in.

Heavenly Father, if I should suffer need, and go unclothed, and be in poverty, make my heart prize Thy love, know it, be constrained by it, though I be denied all blessings. It is Thy my mercy to afflict and try me with wants, for by these trials I see my sins and desire severance from them. Let me willingly accept misery, sorrows, temptations, if I can thereby feel sin as the greatest evil, and be delivered from it with gratitude to Thee, acknowledging this as the highest testimony of Thy love.
When Thy Son, Jesus, came into my soul instead of sin He became more dear to me than sin had formerly been; His kindly rule replaced sin’s tyranny. Teach me to believe that if ever I would have any sin subdued I must not only labour to overcome it, but must invite Christ to abide in the place of it, and He must become to me more than vile lust had been; that His sweetness, power, life may be there. Thus I must seek a grace from Him contrary to sin, but must not claim it apart from
Himself.
When I am afraid of evils to come, comfort me by showing me that in myself I am a dying condemned wretch, but in Christ I am reconciled and live; that I myself I find insufficiency and no rest, but in Christ there is satisfaction and peace; that in myself I am feeble and unable to do good, but in Christ I have the ability to do all things. Though now I have His graces in part, I shall shortly have them perfectly in that state where Thou wilt show Thyself fully reconciled, and alone sufficient, efficient, loving me completely, with sin abolished. O Lord, hasten that day

– Puritan Prayer

Promises

Hey! I know I was supposed to follow up on the last post… but trust me, I am still figuring out the whole emotion thing. I promise I will fill you in later this week, hopefully.

I am reading through Psalms and I came across a very interesting one yesterday. It just gave me so much hope I decided to share it with you!

Psalm 128

Blessed is everyone who fears the Lord,
    who walks in his ways!
 You shall eat the fruit of the labor of your hands;
    you shall be blessed, and it shall be well with you.

Your wife will be like a fruitful vine
    within your house;
your children will be like olive shoots
    around your table.
 Behold, thus shall the man be blessed
    who fears the Lord.

 The Lord bless you from Zion!
    May you see the prosperity of Jerusalem
    all the days of your life!
  May you see your children’s children!
   Peace be upon Israel!

What a wonderful promise for those who fear the Lord and seek to walk in His ways!

Be encouraged!

Ana